There are other factors critical to getting a diagnosis, and these factors are contingent on me.
Humility: I have to be willing to accept whatever help is offered in whatever form it comes, whether I think it applies to me or not.
Openness: I have to stop running and hiding. I have to be open about everything, and open my mind to whatever therapy, counselling or situation is offered to help me get well. Motto: Try everything and try to garner something from it.
Stop trying to hide my illness or deny it.
Acceptance: Start where I am and work from there. Baby steps.
Speak: Don't let things get swept under the carpet or bottled up. Speak up when things don't feel right. (In as kind and gentle way as I can manage--skills I need to learn.)
Motivation: I am committed to seeing this through and doing whatever I have to do to get well. This is not short-term. Getting well is my work. It is my focus. I do my best to finish whatever program I start.
Accept Responsibility: This is something I started to do after my second marriage broke up. Stop blaming others for what is going wrong in my life. Stop blaming family, old boyfriends, events, therapists, etc. While I still look for reasons and understanding about the past--attempting to learn the lessons--how I interpret and deal with the external world is up to me.
This, of course, is made more difficult by having BPD; but I anticipate therapy will help me learn to cope with life more constructively.
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