This is a very important element of managing my condition, with which I need help. Coping strategies and tools.
One of the things that seems to happen easily for me, is I get overwhelmed. With all this sensitivity and nerve endings, I have to be very careful of how I manage my time and protect myself from too much stimulation.
Without care and feedback/support from others, I withdraw, spiral down, sometimes drink, sometimes run. I resign, drop out. Feel terrible about myself because I can't seem to cope with daily life. I can't seem to manage what other people manage. It is all too much and I want to die.
And on my own, I feel that no one can understand. Because it isn't reasonable what will destroy me.
Managing stress, myself, my time, my life, is a critical area for me. Due to my disorder, I haven't been able to cope and have constantly disrupted and destroyed my life and everything I have worked for.
How often have I dropped out of university, quit jobs, friends, relationships and literally left, planning to kill myself. I didn't know what was wrong with me, or how to get help, see things differently, slow down, operate on "turtle time".
(Turtle time: slow and steady finishes the race, unload rather than taking on too much, know my limits and protect them, don't push the river...)
I didn't realize I'm not the only one like this, and that there are therapies available to help.
Soon, I will be entering a day program at the hospital to help learn coping strategies, skills, tools. I'll write what I learn and my experiences when that happens.
I'll write about what Lyubomirsky suggests in my next post.
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